Friday, December 5, 2014

TGIF!

I don't know if it's the full moon or what, but this week has seemed extra crazy to me.
Between several client fights and being in charge of their annual holiday party, I'm so happy it's finally Friday!

The party....ugh....overall it went well but it's still hard to listen to clients/families complain about FREE food and entertainment (a former patient volunteer btw), people who show up without RSVPing, etc..

I also interviewed another student who was not a good fit....interview #3 is scheduled for next week.
As an aside, I can't believe how many people enter social work school with the idea that it is a fast track to private practice, or even actually come out and bad mouth their previous placement.

I also have noticed a trend lately where many of the students I meet don't know what they want to do and social work is like, the third Master's they are pursuing.  

I'm trying to keep an open mind though.

And get through the holiday season both with my clients and myself.


How is your week going in Socialworkland or elsewhere?

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

LOL

OK so I admit I have lurked a bit on that site I deleted myself from.  Those wackadoos are still going on and on about nonsense and I don't think anyone has even noticed I left the building.

Makes me totally justified in my decision to leave.

Glad to have my time back and less stress!

Ah, social media.

Today is our patient holiday party at work so it's going to be a long day. Please send me patience to deal with some of my patients and even moreso....some of their family members.

Happy hump day!!!!

Sunday, November 30, 2014

The danger of social media

I have been part of a certain local area online community for sometime.

I always have enjoyed the discussions, resource sharing and have even met a few nice people this way.

Lately however, I have felt that I've spent way too much time involved to the point where yes....I WILL come out and admit...it was interfering with my life.

When I wasn't online , I was thinking about heated discussions that were happening. I couldn't wait to get back online to see the latest "updates".
 
It is scary to actually come out and write this, but I was taking a lot of things STRANGERS were saying way too personally.

When I woke in the morning, I'd grab my coffee and click on the site to see what was being discussed.

I would find my free time, or time I could be spending with my family, slipping away, where I was caught up in the madness of what was being discussed in this "community".

I went to yoga class this AM and found myself actually thinking about a latest drama going on in the forum....issues that I felt were personally attacking me and even my family/neighborhood this go around.

It was then within that exact moment of my practice that I realized what a fool I have been for so long.
I was a fool for being part of a place that was causing me such anxiety.  At that point I made the decision that as soon as I got home, I was going to delete my account for good.

No goodbyes, no explanations. 

I felt that this was a big part of the problem with this type of social media forum.....it became so dangerous that I was always having to give an explanation; always having to justify whatever I said on there.....even justify what OTHERS said on there....to people who shouldn't have the amount of power in my life that they did. Most are in fact strangers....


While people can be at their best when they are (for the most part) anonymously posting, they can also be at their worst.

So this is my way of coming out and documenting that I had/have a problem with some forms of social media, and I now will need to make a conscious effort to not let it continue to take over my life in a bad way.

There are only a few forms of social media I am going to keep in my life, and most do not involve heated discussions.

Day 1 of moving on and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.

Time to go hang with my son ;)


Sunday, November 23, 2014

Site to share

So you guys.....most of my "job" involves running groups and activities to keep my clients minds active and engaged.

Pinterest becomes my BFF most days.

I recently was pinning away on there ideas for upcoming groups and came across this lady's site:

www.creativesocialworker.tumblr.com

You must go check it out if you are looking for some fun ideas to engage your clients.

Are there any other creative sites you would be willing to share?

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Financial house of order

As social workers, our finances are generally one of the biggest things we worry about.

Because, let's face it...a lot of us tend to live paycheck to paycheck, especially in high cost of living areas. Even if you're not a social worker, most fields these days unfortunately do not allow for much disposable income, so we can all benefit from savings tips.

I am planning to sign up for a FSA for child care and camp costs,  and a HSA for health related expenses. I've been tracking closely what I've spent out of pocket this past year so I know exactly how much to set aside come January

I also decided to enroll in a yearly 1% retirement plan increase earlier this month.  We had a recent visit from our retirement plan people who advised doing this each year and especially with any raise.  I was fortunate enough to receive a 5% raise in Septemeber, so even though it doesn't look like it amounts to much, it does add up eventually.  Right now I save 11% of my income into retirement.  The professionals say that we should set aside at least 10% and up to 20% to be able to retire comfortably.

That's obviously my goal by upping what I increase yearly or with each pay raise.

Today I also decided to sign up for automatic withdrawals for my student loan payment. This will help reduce my current interest rate and I already have this set up for other bills to help me save a little on things like car and life insurance.
(Oh, and speaking of life insurance....if you don't have this I advise you to sign up this year. I hear frequently of people who can't afford a funeral and other needs because they didn't want to pay what they probably spend in Starbucks each month. So do think about it. Especially if you have kids, a house, and other major expenses).

My other goal this year is to reduce what I lay out each week on groceries and Target because I feel like I go to both out of habit and not because we actually need anything.  I may even consider only making coffee at home too because when I do the math in my head, takeout really adds up each month.

I'm also going to try to use up more of what we have on hand already and do at least one weekend a month of no shopping at all.....

What are you planning to help keep your financial house in order this year? 




Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Yoga treat.

Went back to class on Sunday and forced myself to walk out into the 20 degree cold last night to go bend and stretch.

My knee started bothering me half-way through triangle although other than that I still had a decent class.

My bank account is also screaming right now but I decided to buy myself an early Christmas treat with the yearly unlimited package.

The studio owner was running an anniversary special on this so I actually end up saving a lot of money purchasing this way. It comes out to about 1/2 of what I normally pay doing the monthly unlimited.

Now I really have NO excuses to not get there at least 3x a week.  I'm committed now. Or at least my wallet is! If I keep up on my weekends, this is an even easier challenge to complete.

What's on your holiday wish list this year?

Is there a hot yoga studio by you that you would be willing to check out?

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Hot yoga 5 year!

This weekend is the 5 year anniversary of my yoga studio.

I can't believe it's been that long that I've been practicing!

The yoga can be challenging and even difficult,  and I often find it easier to not go some days, but I always, always manage to find my way back to my mat. And I have never regretted even the most hardest of classes.

I went back yesterday night after about a 2 week break and I already feel refreshed and renewed.

I'm so blessed I found this yoga.

How is your weekend going?

Getting any yoga or other exercise in?



Wednesday, November 12, 2014

The problem with social work

Is that everyone freakin' has an opinion on how you do your job.

I had to tell the RECEPTIONIST yesterday that she could gladly swap with me for one week if she wanted, as she made a list of everything she thought I should be doing with my clients...

It's been that kind of week again and it's ONLY Wednesday.

I wish it was appropriate to drink wine at work.  

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Social work

I can't stand the politics of it all at times.

We do good work but there is always someone to try to unravel that and make drama over things that are untrue.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Ha social work

It's been another I can't make this shit up kind of day.

So family are trying to throw me under the bus to my boss because I don't teach auto mechanics.

This one definitely takes the cake.

And it's only Tuesday!

Please tell me the rest of the week isn't going to be so nutter....

Monday, November 3, 2014

Since I'm keeping track of my yoga...

just wanted to say it was an all-around yoga weekend and I'm very proud of myself. I made it to the studio on both Saturday AND Sunday.

Saturday was a rough class.....I think I had lots of stress that came out but that's the good thing about this yoga.

Yesterday was a better class and I was super happy with myself for not sitting out at all during standing series. I was so glad I went because I came thisclose to talking myself out of going....you know...there's always tomorrow and all that ;).

Floor, there's still a couple poses that hurt my knee so I had to take it easy with them....

So glad to have been back though.  I'm keeping focused on meeting my 3 class a week challenge right now and if I can get two classes in on the weekend, I just have one to "drag" myself to during the week.

Happy Monday all. Hope your work week goes easy on you and you get some yoga (or other exercise) in.


Sunday, October 26, 2014

I went back

to the studio yesterday.

It was a decent class and I was sorry I stayed away so long.

I really can't do the Japanese ham sandwich, and any pose that puts direct pressure on my knee cap is out completely.

But I enjoyed taking it easy and re-acclimating to the room.

I told my teacher I was sad about missing out on the challenge this month and of course he told me I was being ridiculous...it's an accomplishment just coming back.

He also told me to take the arthritis with a grain of salt....probably everyone has a little bit of it and by coming to the hot room consistently, I'm already being proactive in keeping it away.

I'm probably going to hit up another class this afternoon.

Otherwise this weekend has been a whole lotta lazy which is exactly what I need.  I feel like I'm coming down with my first cold of the season, or Ebola as many of my clients and colleagues like to joke around about given all the hype in the media right now.

My MIL dropped off some kind of homemade cold and flu drink last night that resembles a urine specimen.  I'm avoiding it actually for that reason alone.

How is your weekend going?

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Stupid knees

So I saw the ortho yesterday.

Update is I sprained my knee.

He also saw some early onset arthritis in the X-Rays so this is my reminder to never grow up ;).

With that said, he did say I can go back to yoga whenever I want....just to listen to my body and take a break if I need it.

My knee is still sore but I will probably head back early next week.  I most likely can't get in this weekend anyway because I have no one to watch my son since DH is away on business, and although he's getting older, I'm still not ready to bring him to the studio even if he's absorbed in the IPad.

I also lost one of my students this week.

I think she will make a great social worker one day, but has some personal stuff she needs to get into check before she can focus totally on grad school.

I know many people just want to get school over with so they can start practicing, but there is a right time for it.....social work will always be there.

Kinda just like yoga ;).....

Any fun weekend plans anyone?

I'm planning to just lay low and take it easy.

We had a school breakfast and soccer this am for DS and I have a few errands to run later and a doctor appt again in the am. Other than that, Monday will be here before I know it!


Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Stopped in my tracks

Wells, if you have been following me on Twitter, you're probably aware that I took a klutzy fall yesterday and hurt my knee.

I had to go to urgent care and I was walking around in a brace all day today.  I'm actually feeling a lot better but made an appt with the orthopedist later this week to be on the safe side.

I also may be jumping the gun a bit too, but I also contacted my studio and asked them to put my membership on hold for a bit until I know more of what is going on with my knee.

It sucks but it is what it is.

One of my students today told me she thinks this is a sign that I need to slow down in general.

She's probably right about that.

It's amazing how quickly ours lives can change in just one instant. 

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Losing...

Less than a 1/4 way through my challenge and I'm losing steam already.

Thanks to a weekend away not being committed to this yoga.

Last night I was super exhausted from being stuck in traffic for HOURS the night before, and snuggling with my boy took precedence over my practice.

I've said it before when I've tried to do these challenges but I think if I can make 3 classes a week, I'm winning. 

I hope to get back tonight but am not going to beat myself up about it if I don't. 

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Day 4 done!

And at this point I feel like I should be much farther along...."Only" 4 classes so far....the light seems far off.

I did FB friend someone from my studio I am friendly with though....we said we would give each other pep talks to keep each other motivated.

I'm going to miss tonight because I have a late doctor appt....I'm definitely on for tomorrow though and Saturday.

Sunday is away to go pumpkin picking.

How is your week going? 

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Finished my 3rd

Even though I had no desire to go to class last night, I pushed myself and was glad I did.

There was a ton of noise going on in my head but I got through it.....even think I did excellent in some of the more challenging postures like balancing stick and locust.


In other stuff, I had a GOOD student contact me last night that they think they may be dropping out of field work....and not because they want to either.

In a nutshell it sounds like the full-time schedule is too much, and if they go down to part-time, they have to give up the placement. Boo!  Was trying to help them figure out a way around the politics, like not telling the school, just doing classes, some internship hours when able and making up the rest of them later as if they were coming onto placement as a late student.

We shall see what happens....what a conundrum!

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Day 2/20

I've been admittedly lazy and missed the last 2 days of class for no good reason.

I decided to hit the room early today though, and was finished with my yoga before noon.

I now have the whole day ahead of me to just relax and unwind.

Munching on some peanut protein and about to hop in the shower.

How has everyone's weekend been?

Did you get any yoga in?

Friday, October 3, 2014

Day 1 down....

I got through almost every posture but was super tired by floor series.

I think doing late night yoga during the work week caught up with me.

I decided for this challenge to also try salt/electrolyte tabs and see if they help me with feeling better during/after class, as well as helping with weight loss.

Any thoughts on them?

19 classes left to go!

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Up for another challenge?

My studio is offering another 20 class challenge for the month of October.

Since my practice has fizzled down a lot lately (especially with the start of school and other extracurricular activities for DS), I figured why not amp it up again and do something nice for myself.

In some other positive news, I found out I will be receiving a 5% merit raise starting in the next pay period. I was excited to be acknowledged at work, and this was also something I did not expect or even ask for so it was a great surprise.  And even though it's not a huge difference, that's still very much needed $$ because our expenses and bills seem to keep going up and up.

At the same time, I do need to become more mindful in that area. I am calling myself out on my blog because spending money is something I always can justify and that's a slippery slope.

I haven't been super accountable lately and have spent a lot of $$$ on things that I don't really need.....

One of my goals this fall is to try to be more frugal....baby steps.....

Do you have any good tips to share about cutting costs?

What about staying accountable to your yoga or other similar practice?

I'll end this post by sharing pics of my medal from the summer sizzle :) 



Saturday, September 6, 2014

Great first week

Just a quick little update to say that DS had a great first week of back to kindergarten.

I feel like full day school is the link that has been missing from his life all along.


He looks forward to going each day, and has actually started asking to go to bed at night, which never ever happens in our house.

It's wonderful that he's so engaged all the time and loves to learn.

As for me, work has been crazy this week. Lots of action with many of my clients.  The program has also been growing, so several new people have started which has changed up the group dynamic a bit.

I haven't been to yoga in more than a week but I plan to change that this weekend. Finances are tighter now that we have to pay for monthly pre-care so I don't want to waste the $$$$ I'm spending on my monthly unlimited classes.

I also haven't been eating healthy much lately either so that needs to change.

My students are starting on Monday so I am hoping that goes well and I have no more drama for a bit in that department. I have decided that I'm just NOT dealing with it, so if I feel that someone is a bad fit, or they end up being too much work, off they will go......

Other than that not much new to report.  What's up in your world with crazy September?

Monday, September 1, 2014

Where did the summer go?

I can't believe it's back to school tomorrow!

Where the heck did summer go?

 I say this every year, but I didn't get to participate in nearly enough of the things I enjoy and look forward to.

I think it had to do with lack of time, lack of money and being consumed by laziness more often than not.

But, I am sure the warm weather will be here for awhile longer AND I get to look forward to all the fall things I enjoy.....cooler mornings, apple and pumpkin picking, flavored coffees and boots!

We went to a BBQ at my in laws yesterday and they always have enough food to feed an army....so I treated them to a nice hostess gift of a pumpkin spice latte and a yummy smelling fall candle to kickstart the season.

I'm already looking at dates to head Upstate and my son starts soccer in a few weeks.

My social work students start placement a week from today.

Do you have any back to school or fall plans you are looking forward to?


Monday, August 18, 2014

Back to the mat

Made it back to the hot room yesterday.

I go back to work today, but I still need to somehow stay motivated to keep a 3-day-a-week practice.

That's only 2 week nights and one weekend day....or 2 weekend days and one weeknight.

Shouldn't be THAT hard to accomplish.....

Have a good work week everyone and wish me luck with my "talk" this AM, as well as just getting back into the grind.....

Ahhhh, social work.......

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Termination station

I've been reflecting a great deal on the importance of my role as a gate keeper for our future colleagues.

While I've only worked with a handful of students so far, I've definitely learned quickly that there are warning signs that our field is not for everyone.

The latest student I've been given, I was told by the school initially that they were young, new to the field and pretty needy which lead to some problems in their first placement with a challenging, complex population, and limited supervisor availability. The school thought a different population and on-site field instructor would help.  Clearly though, it goes way beyond that.

They were okay week #1, and explained lots of issues with the staff and peers in their first placement.  I gave them the benefit of the doubt because I have been in troubling environments like that AS a social worker.

However, by week #2 some serious issues began to show up.

The student began having problems interacting with the patients....their tone was quite punitive in nature.  They had a hard time with assisting in even most basic tasks, became overwhelmed and would leave the practice area in a temper-tantrum.  Soon, they had trouble interacting with other team members and students....to the point I received complaints that they were "rude" and again reacted by leaving the room if not allowed full control over a session (an area they struggled with to begin with so thus, needed the assistance).

I brought all these things up in supervision, where the student disclosed some issues I had already picked up on that require the help of many different helping professionals. They promised they would seek help....even asked for referrals. 

They continued however to show limited insight about their ability to work independently as a social worker......

I gave them many concrete examples of what a cruel, harsh world it is for us, even with a great deal of support. While they SAID they understood that, their ability to follow through on simple tasks, and improve on areas discussed proved otherwise.

A conversation was had at this point with the school and it was then divulged that these were the same struggles previously reported.

I understand that the school had to give the student another opportunity but it still puts me in an awkward position.

There was more of the same while I was out on vacation this week, to the point that the student was asked to leave the agency.

I now have to meet with them to address this, as well as write an evaluation that I, a person who utilizes the strengths-based model daily, is challenged in finding even one good thing to write about their ability to work in the field.

This is upsetting, because I would love to see everyone succeed.  Our field requires it.  We NEED more social workers....BUT.......there are too many people who are passed along who don't deserve, nor have any ability to work with people in need.  Our field is already filled with many of them.....it's also not fair to set a person up this way either....make them continue to spend money on schooling and then put them in a position where either they are never going to find work, or be fired from work.

Being a field instructor is hard......but like becoming a social worker, I have no regrets.

I'm still looking forward to my next batch of students starting in September :).

I have learned with every single student I've had and know I will continue to improve myself both as a field instructor and a social worker along the way. 

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Haven't been in the mood

to attend my hot yoga.

The last time I went was on 8/3 so yesterday I was determined to finally go back.

And I'm glad I did.

I had a pretty decent class and my mind for the most part was focused and clear. I made it through all the postures without sitting out one time which is a rarity for me.

I've been on a staycation from work this week so maybe that's why.....less stress LOL.

Monday is not going to be a fun day back to work...some shit hit the fan with my current student and I'm going to have to officially dismiss them.

I know this is not going to be a nice conversation because they already received one warning.

But I am a gatekeeper and this is definitely not someone I can picture as my colleague a year from now, so the discussion needs to be had.

The school will handle the rest.....

Any fun plans this weekend guys?

I'm taking my son to see the Marvel live show later today; tomorrow yoga....

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Thursday, July 24, 2014

No good reason

But been feeling kind of gloomy and unfocused. Wanting to stay around my house and also snuggle with my son, so there hasn't been yoga at all this week. Well, except on Sunday....better that than none at all.

And that's totally fine.

Sometimes there will be days like this.

This weekend is busy with parties and being away so my mat will have to wait until I come back. 

I hope by then I'm in a better mindset. 

In the meantime I'm going to sit outdoors and enjoy the sunset.



Sunday, July 20, 2014

Ugh up early

I haven't done extra work for my old agency in what seems like months.

I jumped on it when they recently offered me the opportunity to write another service plan.

It's good money for about 1/2 days work.

But that still means getting up super early so I can get home by mid-day and enjoy some of what is left of the weekend.

I also haven't been to yoga in 3 days. I'm totally losing my steam for the hot room.

I need to change that and hopefully get back this afternoon---well, tomorrow night tops.

How has your weekend been going? Any side work or yoga?

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Eh, challenge....

I realized I probably won't finish this challenge.
I think I've only completed 8 classes so far and this month....this week especially is going to be crazy busy.
I have become content with the fact that while it was amazing to complete one challenge last month, overall life is too busy to be much more than a 3 day a week hot yoga girl.


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Lucky # 13

This is the amount of classes left to go in my July challenge.

We shall see......overall 13 doesn't seem like such a bad #. It's much closer to 10 which is much closer to 7 and then 5 where it makes sense to not stop since you're so close.

How is your week going everyone? Whether you yoga or not?

I got a new student this week and so far, things are good.

I also secured both of my new students for the fall.

One of them a colleague knows and ended up calling me to tell me when she saw the student post on social media about how excited they were about their placement.  They told me I made an excellent choice, and I was touched when they said "because they remind me of you".

I also have court today for my first speeding ticket ever.

I wish I could just pay the fine instead of going there, but everyone I talked to advised against that so I get no points on my license which will make my insurance go up.

It's my first one ever so I'm trying to look at it as a new experience, and a costly one at that.....

I don't speed as a rule and have definitely learned my lesson.

Is it time to get ready for work already?


Sunday, July 13, 2014

Why is this second challenge so hard?

I've only completed 6 classes so far out of the 20 challenge for July.

My pattern has been more like every other day instead of daily.

Still good in the grand scheme of things, I know, but my mind is still making it really difficult to get to the studio. 

I have no regrets once I arrive, and my classes overall have been pretty strong.

We're going canoeing this AM and I have plans to still go later so wish me luck getting over this hump. I feel once I have only 10 left to go, I will begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel....

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Fixed

I went back to the studio last night and found my name had been added, so I feel much better about the situation, even though I had started to already get over it the day before.

One of my teachers also introduced me to a newbie as one of his "favorite good people" so that was nice to hear.

It's strange the emotions this yoga can bring out.

But feelings are what they are, even if they come and go.

I don't feel bad for being upset initially.

Now I just need to focus on completing 16 more classes this month LOL.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

I've been quiet lately

I did start another challenge this month, but so far, I'm just not as into it. It could be the busyness with the holiday weekend or it could be something else that if you have followed me on Twitter, know has really upset me:

 I wasn't acknowledged with the rest of the challengers who finished in completing.
  
I did mention it to the owner, but that was 2 days ago and it's still not fixed.

I know in the grand scheme of things, it's probably really silly, but it's hard not to get paranoid and feel excluded.  This was NOT easy for me to finish by any means.

And what bothers me more is that I spend a lot of money and time at the studio, not to mention constantly giving it good press.

It's kind of ironic to find myself being mad at yoga, something that is supposed to be good for me....but that's how I am right now.

I think too that maybe the studio is just getting too big.....

I'm to the point where I actually want to start seeing what else is out there in terms of the yoga community.

It sucks though because there are no other hot yoga studios super close by.

I feel stuck :(

I also feel like people who don't practice, just don't "get" why I'm upset either.....

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

It's not about how you start.....

but how you end.

I remember a favorite yoga teacher saying this last month to a new friend I made at the studio who started her challenge late.

I am thinking of these words today, because I just couldn't find the motivation to push myself to begin my July challenge, especially after having 3 days off in a row.

I really have no good excuse not to be there tonight, so I will just be honest.....I'm being lazy and staying home.

It's only the first of the month though and I am pretty confident I will finish this month out super strong again.

Hope you are all having a good week so far.

Tuesdays for me are pretty exhausting because the largest number of clients are in on that day, and I rarely have student help.

I usually end up leaving work wanting to do nothing that even resembles effort in a hot yoga class.

Thank goodness it's a short week though.




Sunday, June 29, 2014

Did I say.....

I finished my challenge yesterday?

And I completed it by doing a double!!! My first ever.

I feel so confident and accomplished. I can't wait for the July challenge to begin.

For now though, I enjoyed taking a break from the studio today and most likely will take tomorrow too so I can enjoy some time with DS, who just returned home after a week away.

How was your weekend everyone?

I'm ready for only a 4 day work week.....

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

I skipped

I skipped a class tonight guys.

And honestly, I don't really feel that guilty about it.

I've already completed 16 in my 20 class monthly challenge, and I'm pretty confident I will finish completely by the weekend.

I need a rest though.  I've been exhausted only managing to function on average 5 hours of sleep per night with all my 8pms.

I get home around 9:45 and it's usually close to midnight by the time I pass out.

I have had a lot of steam to just keep going, and honestly, know I could've pushed myself tonight, but it's okay to skip a day.

The yoga will be there tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Habit

I completed my 15th class towards my yoga challenge last night and it was amazing.

I got deeper into postures that I've always struggled with and the instructor even called me out for doing a good job.

I also have to honestly say that it's true that after practicing for this many days in a row, yoga has become a habit and something I plan my day around.....totally looking forward to.

Getting to the studio is no longer a chore or something I need to force myself to head out the door to do.

I'm sure that it won't always be like this, but they were onto something when they invented the hot yoga challenge ;).

How is your week going so far?




Sunday, June 22, 2014

14 classes down....

6 left to go for June.

Can I do it?

This weekend was killer.

I spent the majority of both classes just sitting out.  

But I made it to both.

And got through.


How was your weekend? Did you do any hot yoga or something else fun and inspiring? 

Friday, June 20, 2014

12

I completed class 12 last night.

It was so-so.  I had practiced 6 days straight which I think is a record for me. The really hot teacher taught, but other than that, it was nothing special. 

I'm actually taking a break today because it's my son's graduation :).

I also decided to purchase the giftcards for all of his teachers as a thank you and end of school year gift.

I'm excited, because I should be able to make it to the studio every day this weekend, and all next week.

My parents are actually taking my son to their house for a week so a nice break for me as a parent LOL. Plus that means I can make the 6pm and get it over with early ;).


In other news, my sister invited us to go camping with her over the 4th of July weekend but we decided to decline.

Our house will be deep in outside renos at that point, and since we currently own no camping supplies, it would end up costing way too much right now. Plus, even though she ensures me this place has facilities, I'm really NOT an outdoors for several days straight person.  Not sure how my son would handle that either. Maybe next year LOL.

I will probably take a week off in August and we will just stay local, doing some day trips and such and enjoying all that is normally around us that we never take advantage of.

Do you have any exciting summer plans?

Any FREE or low-cost day trips you'd recommend in the LI/NYC area?

Thursday, June 19, 2014

11's done!

Whoa, talk about a rough class last night.

I knew I was in for it when I arrived a little early and students from the previous class were exiting and giving out warning.

After the studio was cleaned, and I went in to set up my mat and towel, I was immediately hit with an intense hot air.

I sat in the room for about 10 minutes before class started, and it helped a lot to acclimate to the heat.

Warm up was hard, especially opening breathing.

I was able to get through class though and honestly, could've pushed myself more, but I decided taking it easy and relaxing a bit sitting out was more important. I looked around and I was the only one doing this for a bit. Soon some others followed and we all laid down.

There were A LOT of distractions last night.....crowded room, many new students and people leaving to pee or take a break from the heat which does not happen all that much, thankfully.

The teacher allowed it but I could tell he was also kind of annoyed because leaving the room is distracting to others and you also can put yourself at risk this way too (I've never seen it but I heard of people passing out and being alone in the bathroom with no one to take care of them if teacher is teaching).

He also mentioned that if you leave the room during class, all that hard work you did is gone in like 7 seconds and you would need to work just as hard and twice as long to get back to where you were.

Who knows though.....he did end his lecture by saying everyone is an adult and they need to do what they need to do, but personally, I kind of side with the teacher.

I've had times where I had to pee or I felt extra dizzy but sitting out and not making the class all about me works. I really feel that most times we need to suck it up for the sake of those around us.

What say you?

Have you ever left a hot yoga class?

I honestly never ever have in all of my years practicing....and believe me, I've had moments where I've wanted to.

I have one more class left to go tonight and I'm taking off tomorrow.  9 left to go for June!!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

10

I'm halfway through my 20 class challenge in June all!

I plan to go tonight, tomorrow night, and will probably have to do at least one double over the weekend to meet my goal.

Despite being tired this am due to falling asleep later because of the late night classes, I feel great overall AND I'm finally starting to see the good changes....I'm able to get further into postures, my body is looking more toned and I'm able to tolerate the heat without sitting out as much.

On another random note, I'm thinking of giving my son's teachers giftcards for the beginners special at my studio as end of year gifts. What say you?

I thought if they don't want for themselves, they could always re-gift.

I love this practice so much I want to try to spread it to others.

Would you go to hot yoga if you received a gift certificate to try it out?


Tuesday, June 17, 2014

8 and 9...and moving backwards to move forward

Clase nΓΊmero 8 was pretty decent.  Started out tough but I ended up doing pretty well in floor series.

Last night though.....class #9 was pretty amazing.

I had a different instructor who was funny and super motivating.

I was able to really get deep into some postures that I normally struggle with.  

I did great in half moon and this one is usually so hard for me during warm up.

I also had a new student sitting next to me, and that usually helps me push myself more to send good energy to the person just starting out.

Some of the words the teacher spoke were very inspiring....when class began she told the new guy that this was "just yoga. Bending and stretching. We weren't going to be mediating on top of a mountain."  Excellent point, although sometimes just getting through a hot yoga class can feel like hiking up the tallest mountain....

She also kept saying that we all had our breath, and this is all we needed.

This is definitely transferable to life outside of the yoga room....

When it was finally time to get into camel, I rocked it. Twice.

The teacher said this is one of the hardest postures, because we spend our whole lives moving forward. We do everything facing front.....driving, sitting at a desk, walking to our next appointment.....

It's so important to remember we NEED to move backwards.....

I'm so proud of how therapeutic this practice has become, and how everything I do on the yoga mat can be applied outside of the studio. I know that sounds hippy dippy but it really is so true.....

On that note too, I'm almost 1/2 way through my 20 class challenge for the month of June!

Will I make all of the classes?  I hope so......I may need to do a few doubles.  But it's still one step at a time.

I may need to move backwards to get forward in my practice and I think I am finally okay with that.

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Class 7 and a bit of my life

Class 7 started out rough yesterday, because I went late after a hectic day and was feeling tired and sore.  I pushed through as always and my teacher helped me again with positioning.

I was happy when the session ended though, came home, ate some dinner and went immediately to sleep.

It's been a rough week around here. Delving deeper into house renos and money, which is of course super stressful.

I also had to put one of my cats to sleep on Thursday.

I ended up missing class that night as a result since I was an emotional mess, and Friday I skipped too because I was exhausted still from the emotional day on Thursday and just not into it. It happens sometimes.....

Onto another random topic....I recently started volunteering for an anonymous community organization.  I thought it would be a nice way to give back, as well as make friends and meet some businesses and community leaders in my area. I helped out with one of their events on Saturday.

However, I'm not sure if I'm going to continue though. Basically for several reasons, but the biggest one is they just seem really cliquey and not overly warm and welcoming.  When I was there yesterday for a couple hours, there were about 5 or 6 other women who barely even said a word to me.

It was pretty awkward. I did chat with one of them at the end for a good bit while we were cleaning up, but the overall vibe from the group hasn't left a good taste in my mouth.

My yoga studio director actually donated some gift cards for one of their upcoming fundraising raffles, and I will give them to them since they do good for the community, but I'm not sure if I will continue to participate much beyond that.

I already have enough stress in my life, I don't need anymore from something that is completely voluntary.

Have you ever experienced something similar? How did you handle? P.S. Since I'm brand new, I don't think I'm ready to jump into a leadership role just yet which would possibly help greatly with organization. (Another reason I'm not liking this group much)

Thursday, June 12, 2014

And 6

Yoga yesterday was not a horrible class, but I had so many things in my head, my mind just seemed everywhere else but my practice.

It was very nice when unexpectedly during half tortoise, my teacher came up behind me and held me down in the posture.

I bet he sensed my head wasn't totally in it.

I'm still glad I went though.

It's helped heading back into the crazy and stressful that is my reality today.

I may share more later....

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Yoga 4 & 5

I'm now officially 1/4 of the way through my challenge.

Baby steps, since the other 75% left to go feels like mountains, deserts and oceans to cross.

My 4th class was eh but my 5th last night was pretty amazing.

I only sat out briefly in standing seperate leg head to knee, which is pretty good because I tend to skip that one altogether.

I also got all the way into camel. Twice.

Another great feeling is that I'm more and more just going with stuff and having fun.  If I can't fully get into one pose, I modify it and do something else. Or just stand still, or sit out and overall focus on my breath.

I was worried before I left for the studio that I would have a rough class. (One) of the issue(s) with going at 8pm is I usually get home from work and am starving. I had some cheese and some peanut butter (not together LOL) to tide me over and fortunately I had no bad reaction. 

Now I just have to focus forward on getting back to my mat all the rest of the week.

I'm pretty bummed today, because DH already said he has to work late tonight so I will most likely have to miss a class.

Boo!

But maybe then on the bright side, I will be able to get more than 5 or 6 hours of sleep ;).

Trade offs.......

Hope your week is going well!

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Excellent class

I had an amazingly strong class yesterday.

I was able to stay in many of the knee locking poses I usually struggle and even give up in. What a great feeling to notice positive change!

It's been a tough week though for actually making it to class, not because I haven't wanted to go, but because DH has had to work and I've had no one to stay with DS.

I am definitely feeling guilty even though I know it's not my fault that life gets in the way of this practice sometimes.

I have completed 3 classes so far this month, and am heading off to my 4th in about an hour.......

Keep sending me good vibes that DH crazy schedule slows down a bit so I can make it to my yoga.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

I couldn't calm down last night

Last night's class is probably the hardest one I remember going to in quite some time.

I started out okay, but at some point, I think I stopped breathing and then the heat and the room would just would not stop caving in on me.

While I felt like I was going to have a panic attack, at the same time, I had moments of clarity passing through my mind where I felt so grateful to be there, on my mat in my familiar studio, participating in this wonderful practice. I felt blessed because I knew then that this is a feeling that can be so rare I think for many people.

Nothing else mattered at that point except that I made it to class!

I wanted to die, but I made it there.....strange as it sounds, but I was in my happy, safe space.

All of the things I am grateful for in my life came into my view.

The little things I dwell on as well that in the grand scheme of things do not really matter.....

I pushed through, even though this meant sitting out almost all of floor series.

2 classes down in my challenge. 38 more to go! 18 left for June......

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Challenge day is here

Today is June 1st, and the first day of my yoga challenge.

As much as I'm looking forward to it, and want to do this, all it can say is one day at a time....

I went to class yesterday and it was hard because I missed a few days in a row, and wasn't particularly hydrated. 

I'm going to try extremely hard during the challenge to not have any excuses to miss class.

That's the hardest part. Just getting to the studio.

I realized I say "hard" a lot when it comes to this practice LOL.

But it's definitely not easy....I should be proud for making it through one class!  A few weeks ago I had a free 10-day pass for my studio, and could not find one taker due to the intensity of this yoga.  I finally was able to give it away to a friend of a co-worker.

That speaks volumes to me about not beating myself up. And for finding something that I love and do not necessarily need to share with everyone (their loss).

Happy weekending all :).

Do you have any personal goal challenges coming up this month?

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

It's hump day!

Oh the benefits of having a long weekend.

And what a great weekend it was.....I went to yoga again on Monday.

Took a break for no good reason yesterday and plan on going back today and tomorrow and then my challenge will start.....

I also decided to put my gym membership on hold since I never go and that's $20 a month being pissed away. It's not a lot but it adds up and is coffee money LOL.

It's slow but I AM noticing a change in my body again just from the hot yoga. My arms especially are thinner and more defined.  

I have some stressful client things coming up at work in June so it's so nice to know I have this practice to continue to go to outside of work, whose benefits come back to me in all aspects of my life.

How has your week been going? Was work crazy yesterday after the long weekend?

Any plans you are looking forward to in June?

Monday, May 26, 2014

I signed up!

Well, after completing 3 days in a row of yoga on Thursday, Friday and Saturday, I decided to sign up for the yoga challenge. I don't know if I will be able to do 40 days of yoga in the months of June and July, so I made my goal to hit 20 classes.

We shall see how I do.

I'm really going into it with no expectations at this point, beyond just wanting to keep a solid committment to my practice.

Do you have any goals or challenges you are planning for the summer months?

How has your holiday weekend been? 

I hope like me you are enjoying the lazy days and getting in some sun and fun with not too many plans or expectations.

I went to an airshow yesterday and then had friends over for an impromptu BBQ and it was the perfect kick off to summer, along with remembering the real meaning behind the holiday weekend....those who have served for us in the military. 

Freedom definitely isn't free.


Friday, May 23, 2014

All you need to do is breathe. Nothing else.




As constantly stated by my yoga instructors.....such an easy thing to do, yet so hard.

I've been missing a lot of yoga time this month, for no good reason.

I went back to my mat last night and let these words sink in.

Why is just focusing on breath such a challenge? I tend to let the 123456789 things I am doing take over my thoughts, and most regularly my opportunities to attend class more often.

I am hoping to change that this summer.

I want to make the committment to complete a yoga challenge.

They are having a 40 class challenge starting in June, and if you complete that many sessions in June and July, August will be free. Plus, the teacher will reduce the unlimited monthly cost in June & July by a few bucks....

All I have to do really is just make it to the studio and breathe. Nothing more, nothing less.

Why is this so hard to do though?

Everytime I go to the studio I never ever regret it.

I even ate cheese before class last night and survived. :)

I know 40 classes is not easy to do, especially with everything else going on in the summer, but I'm thinking really hard that I should be able to do at least the 20 in either June or July. I still have a few more days to decide if I'm going to sign up.  

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Made a year!

Yesterday I celebrated my 1st anniversary at my job.  I was so excited and my co-workers, clients and even some of the aides who take my clients to the program made me feel extra special and appreciated.

While there are stressful moments on occasion, overall my role does not ever truly feel like "work". As sappy as it sounds, I don't ever remember a day when I actually didn't look forward to going into my agency (well, okay, maybe during our many snowstorms earlier this year LOL). Sometimes I think that maybe I'm just in a very unique place, but I always feel emotionally healthy and my clients have even become like a second family. There is also rarely if ever any co-worker bullshit and the stuff when it surfaces is like a blip on my radar. 

I know this is very, very rare in our field, and I feel grateful and blessed to have found and been offered such a wonderful opportunity.

I also am sure that it even appears like I'm bragging sometimes when I talk about work, but I do share because I feel that especially in our field, it's so important to contribute so much of ourselves to a place that is healthy, where you enjoy what you do and overall, know you are truly appreciated.

It may take awhile to get there, but there are employers like this.

Having been on the opposite end of the spectrum makes me see this even more, and I have become all that much more appreciative.

It also has made me realize that I've stayed in bad situations for far too long thinking this was the norm in social work.




Monday, May 19, 2014

Awesome class

I think I hydrated well beforehand and was in a better mindset emotionally because I felt like I rocked class yesterday.

I only took one short break and even got all the way into camel.

Yay, stress release!

I want to start trying to make 3 days on, 1 day off my routine. We'll see. As is my history, that's often easier said then done. 

My studio is gearing up for another summer challenge and the "prize" is a month of free yoga.....how awesome would that be! 

In any event, it's day by day with me. I try not to set myself up for failure here because that's not what the yoga is all about. Have a great week all!

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Yog-emotion

I had a very emotional class earlier today.

I felt like I was crying the whole time, except with no tears.

Sounds very strange, I know.

I have been dealing with a great deal of stress lately, especially to do with house reno stuff.

So it makes sense.

I feel amazing right now though. Refreshed and relaxed.

I hope to get to the studio tomorrow, too.

How's your weekend going? 

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Wobbly

I finally went back to class last night after a very long and lazy break from my mat.

The best way I can describe my practice last night was wobbly.....I was feeling wobbly even during the opening breathing exercise.

But it is what it was and I was glad I went back as soon as I was into the first couple of breaths.

There was even a pregnant woman in class last night....first time I've actually seen that even though I heard it's pretty common and healthy to practice Bikram with child.  She looked like she was very early on and I give her a ton of credit for just going into the hot room. Now that to me is what makes a true yoga rock star.

I am planning to go tonight again after work too......

Speaking of work, a few weeks ago I wrote about applying for a PT position. I was going back and forth in my mind about whether or not I wanted to take on the extra responsibility. Well, to provide an update, the decision was made for me.....after the person reached out, was in constant touch, and provided me with the direct # to HR saying to tell them that they referred me....I got an email from HR that they reviewed my resume and there are no open positions.

I tried emailing my contact to thank them and delve a little deeper (I thought it was bizarre that I was recruited and then the HR response), and their email bounced back to me.......not sure what that is all about...

But in the meantime I'm taking it as a sign.

I do want to do something for extra money, but I just think the timing is off right now.

Right now I will just focus on my yoga 😎.

The rest will come.

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Refreshed

I went back to yoga class this afternoon and it was just what I needed after quite a stressful weekend.

I think my teacher had the heat turned up as high as it could go, because warmup series was harder than I remember it being in a long time.

I was able to conquer it though and while I didn't rockstar in second half of floor series, I at least was able to remain on my feet before I decided to allow myself a short break before tree pose. 

We've had a lot going on with DS lately so I needed to get away for a bit today to clear my head.

Maybe I will post about it soon, but in a nutshell, DH and I completely disagree on an extracurricular activity DS is currently involved in. It's caused so many issues lately. 

I can't believe tomorrow is Monday already. Weekends seem to be going by faster and faster these days.

Thankful I got my yoga in.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Can I give an update?

While it's not anything earth shattering, we've decided to go with a wait and see approach in regards to DS "diagnosis".

I put diagnosis in quotes, because he's still only 5.

Since I last wrote about this, I've spoken to my family, some friends and several colleagues who all tend to have the same philosophy. 

I also was in touch with the Director of CPSE for our district, who gave me all of my options for next steps. She was pretty candid however that since he hasn't actually begun Kindergarten, it was her recommendation we wait too before doing anything else major.

I may request a meeting with the school psychologist before school begins as a precautionary measure, but I don't think we want to ask for an inclusion classroom or other types of services just yet.

And the big one----no meds for this boy right now either.  We will continue to give him melatonin at night, and I also need to set up an appt with the Ped for bloodwork to check his iron levels. Other than that, while he does continue to have issues that are apparent, they are not anything we can't deal with overall right now.

So that's that.

As for yoga? Haven't been since Saturday.

The past two days I totally made excuses. Tonight not so much as DH is still working so I'd never make it anyway.

Now I do need to focus on making it there tomorrow and Thursday.  Because the yoga is something I do have control over. The other stuff? Not so much......

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Having second thoughts

Recently I wrote about a colleague recruiting me to work PT counseling for his agency. I would be able to set my own hours and the money is decent. In yoga class yesterday however, the thought of adding anything extra and new to my plate kept cropping up.

Especially with summer and nice weather around the corner.

While it's certainly nice to be bringing home an extra paycheck each month, my thoughts kept drifting to how nice it is to have downtime on the weekends and when I get home at night.

I still have to complete the paperwork and some other things and I'm not ruling it out completely, but I am definitely having second thoughts right now.

I also think I could stand to get a little more serious about budgeting from my F/T job too..........

What say you?

Do you work anywhere in addition to your primary employer? 

Do you have to work or do you just like having the extra $$$ in case like me?

Any good budgeting tips/blogs you enjoy btw?

Enjoy your Sundays.....

Friday, April 25, 2014

Yoga-ed

I yoga-ed last night. Wasn't my best class (tons of stress on my mind obviously) but the hottie eye-candy teacher was there so it made it worthwhile. SIL was also coming as I was going so we spoke a little about DS and it helped build some clarity.  I'm struggling with the whole med issue and I don't think I want to medicate just yet......her POV was to hold off for now as well.....

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Diagnosis

We met with the developmental doctor today and she gave us her diagnosis for DS: ADHD combined type. 

While it has been suspected all along, I'm kind of overwhelmed about everywhere we now officially need to go.

The only thing I can say with absolute certainty is that I finally feel a sense of great relief that there's a name for this experience we've been having over the past several years---because we now have direction(s) we could potentially take with DS. 

If anyone has dealt with ADHD, and is comfortable sharing, I welcome any and all feedback. The good, the bad and even the terribly ugly. I am especially interested in hearing about someone older and how it has affected them.

Note: I can also provide you with my email if you prefer to comment privately.

I am definitely going to yoga tonight because I need to decompress.

I am sure I will share more at another time. There are so many things going through my mind, but right now I am just going to choose to sit with my feelings for a bit.

Thank goodness it's almost the weekend. I need it this week even more than ever.

Thanks so much for listening,

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Lazy slacker

I haven't been to yoga in almost a week. And I know that I made excuses on some of the days I could've easily gone if I just ignored the voices in my head saying not tonight. I NEED to look at this post again tomorrow and get back to my damn mat, since I never regret that......even after the hardest class ever or gas or sleepiness or hunger or laziness or whatever else happens or doesn't happen......it's so true though: the hardest class is the one you don't go to. The end. No excuses. 

Friday, April 18, 2014

Missing my practice

I didn't go to yoga last night.

I was exhausted and felt I needed a break. At the same time, I'm feeling bummed because it's the holiday weekend and I'm not sure I'll make it to even one class because of all my other commitments. 

I know I shouldn't, but I always get this awful yoga guilt when I do not go.

I think about the money, I think about being lazy and not taking care of my body, I think about not getting this time back.....

I tell myself it's only a few more days, but I still feel badly and guilty.

Anyone else face the same feelings if you start to miss your practice days?

Do you have any wise words for me? 

As an aside, anything fun planned this weekend?

TGIF all! Only 8 hours to get through at work today!!!!

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Being still

On a hot yoga forum I belong to, I recently read that someone judges whether or not they had a good class, on their ability to remain still. This resonated with me and I held this in my mind throughout yesterday's class.

While the 2nd half of floor series was a struggle (I don't think I was hydrated enough), I focused on remaining as still as possible in the postures I was able to do.

And I think it ended up being a pretty decent class.

My back has been bothering me lately so I was also taking it easy in many postures because of that. 

I'm hoping to return to my mat tonight but I'm not going to beat myself up if I don't.

I feel like I've become a lot more committed to my practice in just the past month, then I have even in all of the last year.

I love this yoga.

I've still been trying to encourage other people to go with me, but have had no luck on that end.

That's totally fine though because I love the me time and ability to focus on just myself and being still ;).

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Donating

I've been cleaning out my closet and drawers these past two weekends and donating the goods. If I haven't worn in it in months, years, or ever----into the bag it has gone.

I have no regrets.

And the best part is I found a local organization who picks up and turns your goods into funds for their program.

I haven't donated any big things like furniture yet but I believe they take that stuff too.

I always have told myself I was going to do a yard sale, or give my stuff to my sister who is an eBay power seller, but honestly, both of those things are too much work.

And I feel like my things are going to a better cause.

I have my second pick up scheduled for this am.

Check them out:

BBBSLI.org

What do you do with all your stuff you want to get rid of?  Donate? Sell? Toss altogether? 
Clothing swap? I've done the last a few times and that's fun too IF you are really going to use the goods you're swapping.

Happy hump day all!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

A night off

I decided to take tonight off after going to class the past two days. I had my clothes with me to hit the studio right after work, and I could still make the 8pm, but tonight I had some stuff I wanted to get done around the house. Also it's rainy and blah out, I deserve an early bedtime or at least time to lounge around and catch up on some nonsense tv. 

I don't want to seem like I'm making excuses. If I stop going to class at least 3x per week, then yes, I will know I need to reevaluate my situation because then excuses really DO tend to crop up. I know me. 

Till tomorrow.......

Yoga yesterday

My class started out pretty strong but then seemed to go downhill at points. I also had a gassy stomach for some reason, and well, you know, a little pop happened.....I don't think anyone noticed or if they did they were polite and didn't say anything LOL.

It was a teaching moment though, to laugh at myself and keep truckin' along.

Kind of like how life is (or should be).

We all have embarrassing moments that frequently happen unexpectedly. 

What has yours been in yoga or elsewhere? 





Monday, April 14, 2014

Noticeable change

I can tell the yoga is working already. My arms look less flabby. Enough that I can get away with a short-sleeve shirt for work today.  Exciting! πŸ™†πŸ™…πŸ’πŸŽ½πŸ‘πŸ’ͺπŸ‘

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Today's yoga

My class was so good today! I finally feel like I'm getting back in the groove of things again. The instructor actually called me out two times to say good job. Once in awkward, which I'm terrible in and hate and secondly in triangle. I pushed myself hard to reach as high as I could in that pose. Then I took a little break and sat out LOL. I also had a friend join me today for her first class. I think just having her there also gave me inspiration to push through harder.  I even got all the way down in camel, which I haven't not sat out in as long as I can remember.  I'm feeling really recharged and motivated again for this practice. Ready to take on whatever comes to me this week.  Happy almost Monday y'all. Hope you got in some yoga or other good stuff just for you.

Updated resume

I decided to apply to do some limited PT adjustment and behavioral counseling cases. The hours are flexible and the pay is good. My referrals have dwindled down from my old job, and working 1:1 with people for an hour is probably less of a commitment. I'm excited! I updated my resume for my contact and sent it this morning. Wish me luck. Extra $$$ is always a good thing!

Friday, April 11, 2014

Clients who don't fit in

I am currently struggling with this issue at work right now. The client is extremely unstable psychiatric wise and the rest of my clients are not. In fact, most do not have any type of psych history. 
My program is primarily run in a group format, so they have been changing the dynamic a lot----and obviously in not a good way.

The client has had a lot of stuff happen recently and at this point, I'll admit it---I'm starting to get scared. Especially for my other clients.  I've had some gut issues come up around this person, and they've always come true thus far. 

What really sucks, is the worker managing the case is not really responsive to me and as a result, I worry even MORE about what to expect from this person. Communication is so lacking which is never good with a unstable individual.

I really want to just say the client can't come to the program until they are stable, but I do not yet have permission to do that. Plus, they do not have much support at all so my program is one of their only means of socialization. (If you can call it that). Most of the time they are isolating, require constant attention or are interrupting me to do non-program related tasks.

While they only attend a couple times a week, they are very demanding and I leave work completely drained on the days they do attend program. It's amazing how having to be on your guard all the time tires you out......

They also have done so many inappropriate things lately.....too many to even list.

Everything they've done is overall a red flag for help with a ticking time bomb.

The plus is that my students are learning at least. I have told them it's definitely important to familiarize themselves with psych stuff, even if they ultimately do not want to work with that population. This client is an example of that. And you can't get away from severe mental illness when you work with almost any population regardless of primary problem you are seeing them for.

I admit it.....I am so happy today is Friday so I don't have to deal with them for another 2 days......ugh, the joys of social work.......how has your week been?

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Class tonight

SIL was supposed to join me tonight but bailed at the last minute. I still sucked it up though and went anyway. Class of course was challenging, but I went light on myself in the beginning of floor series which allowed me to push into some of my favorite poses in the 2nd set.  At one point the teacher even called me out saying "Good job!" when I kept standing bow until the end.  The only pose I really sat out for was camel. I looked around the room, which was pretty crowded, and there were about 5 or 6 other people taking it easy as well.  I'm glad I pushed myself to go today because it would've been so easy to make an excuse to stay home after I saw SIL's text. So far I'm hanging steady with getting to the studio at least 3 days a week, even if 2 of the days ARE on the weekend.  Now I'm exhausted and really need to get some sleep. Since I had off today, it seems like Friday and I keep forgetting I have to go into work tomorrow.

Update: Developmental Ped & DS lately

I just realized I haven't spoken about my son much lately. We took DS to his first appt. today with a developmental pediatrician through Cohen's Children's Hopsital, so an update is timely.  I was very pleased with the experience, although the wait time was forever (I contacted them back in early December). It makes sense though because this is the same program that works closely with preemies. I figured out that my nieces had gone here since they were born several months early.  But anyway.......he finally had his appointment so I'm content now.

The doctor talked with us about our concerns, took down some of the history and began the 1st half of the IQ testing in verbal where he scored really high.....no surprise here--- this kid is smart and I am definitely not bragging, but I often think this is at root with his issues.

She also advised us to start giving him melatonin right away to help with his sleep problems, and also recommended iron testing.

The kid really doesn't eat a whole lot of meat and drinks whole milk like crazy. Apparently, milk cancels out iron absorption according to the doctor.

She stated children with iron deficiency display a lot of the problems we mentioned seeing ongoing in DS.

I told her that DS just had his mid-year review through CPSE and they are discontinuing OT at the end of the school year. His Pre-k teacher also reports no issues.....she said he's extremely social and craves learning......often calling out answers in class. She also told us that right now he is actually on end of Kindergarten-1st grade level for most learning (whatever that means).  As of right now he will also enter Kindergarten with no services in place. We are concerned because he's only going 1/2 days now and K will be full day, starting with an early morning pre-care drop-off since we need to both be to work early, I explained to the doctor my worries about him being able to function and not have the problems in school that he has now in the afternoons and evening.

She listened to all of our points and welcomed us back in 2 weeks for his next appt. I also have more thorough paperwork to fill out about his behavior, as well as a form for his school to complete.

It continues to be a roller coaster at times of good and bad days, just like anything else, but I am hopeful that this is the right step to get to the root of the problem.....

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Guess who's working late tonight?

DH. So there goes my yoga, damnit. I'm not starting my practice again on a very good foot. 

Ugh need more sleep

This week isn't really starting out on the right foot as far as that is concerned. I thought I got to bed at a decent hour last night only to be woken up twice and then of course having a hard time falling back to sleep. Today is going to be rough. Tuesday is a heavy client day at work and none of my students are in to help out. I will push through though, I always do. Yoga later? We shall see. What's on your plate for today, friends?

Monday, April 7, 2014

Accountable

I had to work late unexpectedly tonight so I didn't get to attend a yoga class like I promised myself I would in the wee hours of this morning. I'm bummed but I wanted to be done for good with this plan so the client can finally come out of the facility, and so I of course can get paid. So that was that. I still have the whole rest of the week to make it back I keep telling myself, and I did go on both Saturday and Sunday this weekend. It's hard to not get the yoga guilt when I'm trying to hold myself accountable though. Did you have anything unexpected come up today to throw a wrench in your plans?

Up early

I got up early today because I couldn't sleep. Came downstairs, made some coffee of course and threw dinner for tonight into the crockpot. I'm thinking ahead to what I have to do this week, trying to stay focused and positive. So far these are my top things:

Weather report this week looks glorious!

Pay day is Thursday!

DS finally has his appt with the developmental pediatrician and I have the day off from work on Thursday.

I organized my closet and drawers and came across so many outfits I forgot I have. Also scheduled a pickup for all the clothes I want to donate on Saturday.

DS is going upstate this coming weekend for the week to spend time with my family.

My week ahead seems pretty open in the evenings so I can yoga if I want to.

I am sure there's more I just can't think of right now since it's so early.

What are your top things to be focused and positive about this week?


Sunday, April 6, 2014

Decent class

I had a decent class today. I was able to at least attempt all of the postures and only sat out in the middle of standing separate leg head to knee. But that makes sense because I pushed myself to complete both sets of triangle, as I had sat out for both in the last two classes I went to. It was also a brand new reacher today who I've never had class with, so changing things up a bit was nice. I am very much planning to attend tomorrow night's 8pm if I get a decent night's sleep tonight. I am also going to crockpot dinner during the day so I won't have that extra chore to do when I get home. Hope you all have a good work week!

Tracking some yoga

After taking a very long break after having a not so committed to my practice 2013, I decided to head back to yoga last Sunday 3/30. So far I've attended 3 classes in total and although for the most part the classes have been brutal, I'm really enjoying being back on my mat. I've been in a funk lately and also have gained a ton of weight, which hasn't helped anything. I think going back in the hot room regularly is what I need to stay motivated and remain in a good place in my head. I had all but decided I probably was not going to return again after not renewing my unlimited membership at the end of the year due to lack of use. Then, I don't know what it was, but out of nowhere last week the thought of the yoga came back in my mind.  I was sitting around not doing too much of anything, so I felt why not? I plan to go as much as I can, with at least a 3 day commitment on weeks life begins to get in the way. At some point, I also want to start going back to the gym some early mornings, to boost my weight loss. I have also slowly become more mindful of what I put in my mouth, and I'm trying to eat healthier overall.  This blog needed an update so I think I will use it to track my yoga progress. I'm actually heading off to another class in a few minutes. Wish me luck!

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Boring blog

I feel like I've hit a wall on here.

In the past, I think that I've had a lot to write about that is social work related, but lately, that's hardly the case at all.

My clients tend to all be pretty stable, and if they do present with some kind of an issue, it's fortunately not something that is too crisis related that I require feedback from the great wide web on.

My co-workers are all decent people and on the occasion that an issue comes up with my student, I know that this is not the appropriate forum to write about it.


I'm still doing some minimal P/T work at my old company, and recently, I've started to peruse the want ads looking to see if there's some place else I may be able to pick up a tiny worthwhile gig without completely overwhelming myself.

I actually must say as well, that my son seems to be turning over a new leaf since he hit 5 around New Year's.

A lot of the behaviors that were making me practically go into crisis mode have almost disappeared completely.

I still have an appt. scheduled for him to meet with a specialist in the early spring, but am wondering now if maybe we won't even need it?

I contribute all of these changes to the fact that everyone is growing up around here.

With all this said, I'm not sure when I will be back to write or what turn I would like this blog to take. I kind of value my anonymity overall (even though there are a handful of people who know who I am IRL) so something like a fashion, photography or daily lifestyle blog is not my cup o' tea.

Anyways, I just wanted to check in to say I haven't completely fallen off the planet, but life is just pretty boring right now and I'm okay with that.