but I think I was being punished for having Monday off as this week was kind of a week from hell.
Lots of client drama and incidents....it was just one thing after another.
I didn't even have a chance to finish most of my paperwork which is so not like me. (And of course I'm stressed about that ;)
I've had random family call me crying about stuff, clients falling, making serious accusations about issues, saying they weren't taking their meds, fighting and even threatening to go blow things up. Throw in some aide nonsense and just general lack of space and problems over that...yeah, this week I'm so glad it's over.
I have to take a day off this comingTuesday to take my son to an appointment that has already been rescheduled....I'm kind of afraid of what I'm going to walk into on Wednesday.
I'm also super stressed about an issue that we seem unable to resolve....clients keep coming in early and we can't supervise them, which of course is leading to problems. I'm really feeling backed into a corner and may just need to say they can no longer come.
I haven't been to yoga since Monday, but I am definitely hitting my mat this weekend!
Any similar stories you want to share to make me feel better?
I think because December always seems to be a pretty stressful month, with just getting through the holidays, spending ridiculous amounts of $$$ and being there for people who are often not in the mood to celebrate.....including myself ;).
I do like to look at January as a fresh new start however, and an opportunity to re-visit what I would like to accomplish.
My personal goals are pretty simple....take more time to play with my son (we both need that connection, if only for 10 minutes a day), finish some of our house renovations (DH ripped out most of the first floor this past week), get back on track with my spending/saving habits (been terrible lately)....do more yoga (at least 3x a week....always makes me feel better).
I have to drop some weight too, but I'm going to focus on small, easy changes like bringing salads for lunch.
I think these goals are realistic and manageable.
What goals are you looking to complete in the new year?
I don't know if it's the full moon or what, but this week has seemed extra crazy to me.
Between several client fights and being in charge of their annual holiday party, I'm so happy it's finally Friday!
The party....ugh....overall it went well but it's still hard to listen to clients/families complain about FREE food and entertainment (a former patient volunteer btw), people who show up without RSVPing, etc..
I also interviewed another student who was not a good fit....interview #3 is scheduled for next week.
As an aside, I can't believe how many people enter social work school with the idea that it is a fast track to private practice, or even actually come out and bad mouth their previous placement.
I also have noticed a trend lately where many of the students I meet don't know what they want to do and social work is like, the third Master's they are pursuing.
I'm trying to keep an open mind though.
And get through the holiday season both with my clients and myself.
How is your week going in Socialworkland or elsewhere?
I have been part of a certain local area online community for sometime.
I always have enjoyed the discussions, resource sharing and have even met a few nice people this way.
Lately however, I have felt that I've spent way too much time involved to the point where yes....I WILL come out and admit...it was interfering with my life.
When I wasn't online , I was thinking about heated discussions that were happening. I couldn't wait to get back online to see the latest "updates".
It is scary to actually come out and write this, but I was taking a lot of things STRANGERS were saying way too personally.
When I woke in the morning, I'd grab my coffee and click on the site to see what was being discussed.
I would find my free time, or time I could be spending with my family, slipping away, where I was caught up in the madness of what was being discussed in this "community".
I went to yoga class this AM and found myself actually thinking about a latest drama going on in the forum....issues that I felt were personally attacking me and even my family/neighborhood this go around.
It was then within that exact moment of my practice that I realized what a fool I have been for so long.
I was a fool for being part of a place that was causing me such anxiety. At that point I made the decision that as soon as I got home, I was going to delete my account for good.
No goodbyes, no explanations.
I felt that this was a big part of the problem with this type of social media forum.....it became so dangerous that I was always having to give an explanation; always having to justify whatever I said on there.....even justify what OTHERS said on there....to people who shouldn't have the amount of power in my life that they did. Most are in fact strangers....
While people can be at their best when they are (for the most part) anonymously posting, they can also be at their worst.
So this is my way of coming out and documenting that I had/have a problem with some forms of social media, and I now will need to make a conscious effort to not let it continue to take over my life in a bad way.
There are only a few forms of social media I am going to keep in my life, and most do not involve heated discussions.
Day 1 of moving on and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.