Monday, July 4, 2016

Ending suffering

So I've been struggling with a tough decision these past few days.

My pug, who is 12, seems to be off lately.

As it is, we have to do almost everything for him because he is blind and no longer moves around much.

He has started to lose a ton of weight though, eating and just walking has become more difficult.

It has been my hope that he will just pass peacefully in his sleep but so far I don't see that happening.

I had a bunch of family over this weekend who haven't seen him in awhile who recommended it is time to probably take him and put him to rest.

One of them even offered to do it while I am at work so it would be easier. I have been kind of avoiding making a decision at all and told them I would let them know after the holiday weekend.

When I went to yoga yesterday, my dog came into my mind most of the class.  At one point I remembered that part of his name means freedom.  When I was presented with this thought, I realized that freedom also means letting go; to put the end to pain and suffering.  At the end of class I laid on my mat for a bit at peace with my decision that one day very soon it would be okay to let him be free. 

When I got up from my mat to leave, I looked out the window and there was a white butterfly on the glass.

I took this as a definite sign as well that it is almost time.

He has been having a hard time with even recognizing and accepting touch lately but here is a pic he let me take of him yesterday.


Sunday, June 19, 2016

Have I said how much I love the yoga community?

I got an email last night from another student at my studio that made my night....my week even.

It's such an amazing, supportive community.

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this practice 6 years ago.

6!!!

That's crazy.

Feels like I've been going forever and it's such a part of me now.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Gorilla mom

Wherever I go, this seems to be the talk this week.

All I can say is I had a very rough day with my son last night at his baseball game. So while I had been saying this all week anyway about the story, I can again really relate to the mother of that little boy.

You never know what shit kids are going to pull in public.

I've also never been so embarassed and mortified after last night,  and it would not surprise me if the situation ended up on our local Facebook mom's group--at the very least.


Monday, May 30, 2016

Tired

Today will be a super lazy day.

We went to the beach all day yesterday for a Memorial Day airshow and the sun wore me out completely.

I didn't sleep well last night, so slept in and missed yoga today. (Studio was only open for morning classes).

Only things on my radar today are to shower, pick up some groceries, laundry and cleaning of course.

My studio is also offering another summer challenge in June & July so I signed up.

My goal is to try to do 20 classes in one of the months.

But overall, I hope the challenge will help me maintain my 3 classes a week as this has ebbed and flowed this month too due to the busyness of life.

I also just ordered new bands for my FitBit.

I have not missed one day of 10k steps since I got it, and usually average 12k steps.

Get yourself one of these if you need a shove in being more mindful about your physical activity.

Lastly, 89 days to Disney!

I'm not allowed to do the countdown in my house though, because this means summer is over and it's only just begun!!

We actually considered this weekend reconfigurating our trip and renting out vacation club points so we could afford to stay at the Poly, but so far everything seems to be booked. 

Either way I know we will have a fantastic time and we have "free" dining currently.

Hope your summer is off to a good start too :).

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Weird day

So yesterday I was out and about and ran into an old co-worker who used to torture me at my last job.

I was cordial though, and said hello, and we chatted for a few minutes.

It was interesting to me to see they are still there, despite their constant complaining about wanting to get out and find a new job. I also felt really peaceful after we parted, that I can put that part of my life to rest. I wasn't bothered by them anymore.

There also must've been something else going on in the universe yesterday too, because this woman who goes to my yoga studio, an ex-reality star in fact!, who everyone typically avoids like the plague due to her annoying behaviors....sat down by me and started chatting.

Actually normal stuff. And she even paid me a compliment.

I actually felt bad after that and this made me realize you never really know someone's full story, or why they react the way they do in certain situations.

I guess both of these encounters are proof of that.


Thursday, May 12, 2016

Just checking in

So I've been MIA for awhile, but not really.

As usual, life has been somewhat routine and I just don't have anything much to talk about.

I did finally fall into the FitBit craze which has become nothing short of amazing for my motivation level and participation in getting my body moving. I cannot recommend this device enough. I bought the cheapest model they sell on Amazon....the Flex.   Have been competing in several challenges and they really help push me to my edge. Sometimes I find myself dancing in place a la Elaine from Seinfeld to stay in the Top 3 LOL. 

Still also trying to keep up with my yoga 3x a week. For the most part, this is easy to do, but some weeks are busier than others and I have to accept getting to the studio less.

Work has continued to be kind to me.  I'm actually approaching my 3rd anniversary.  Major thing going on is trying to increase our volume.  We've lost several clients for various reasons so our stats have gone down. We also decided to stop providing services for NYC clients so this has created a lull in new referrals.  Hoping that things will change in the next few months, but I am also enjoying having slower days.  Especially because I'm wrapping up with my students and I won't have extra help for a few months ;).

Anyways, I'm totally looking forward to the summer.  Also counting down to a little over a 100 days until we leave for Disney!!

What's new with you?

Monday, April 18, 2016

Learning to say no

I have an offer to do PT work again.
Most of it can be done at home.
I told the person I would get back to them.
And while we could definitely use the money, after having a nice relaxing weekend, I think I'm going to say Thanks but no thanks.
Between all my son's activities, working FT and just wanting "me" time....especially with summer coming....adding more to my plate for an extra paycheck each month just doesn't seem worth it.


It was a timely reminder of all that is good in my life.
I got two yoga classes in this weekend.
And spent two afternoons in the sun just coloring.

Budget, I need to work on you again too.....

Happy Monday all!