Saturday, August 20, 2016

I just realized....

that I've always had a love of butterflies and always found them comforting. 

Things will be okay.

I am loving that this has been my sign. Twice.

Tomorrow

Is the day for our dog.

I've been kind of ignoring this for the past week since I scheduled the appointment.

I went to yoga class this afternoon and again this weighed heavily on my mind.

I asked for another sign that I was making the right decision.

On the way home, a song came on the radio about being guided by wild Angels. 

When I got to my house, I opened the mailbox and out flew one of those white butterflies again....

I guess it's time.

Monday, July 4, 2016

Ending suffering

So I've been struggling with a tough decision these past few days.

My pug, who is 12, seems to be off lately.

As it is, we have to do almost everything for him because he is blind and no longer moves around much.

He has started to lose a ton of weight though, eating and just walking has become more difficult.

It has been my hope that he will just pass peacefully in his sleep but so far I don't see that happening.

I had a bunch of family over this weekend who haven't seen him in awhile who recommended it is time to probably take him and put him to rest.

One of them even offered to do it while I am at work so it would be easier. I have been kind of avoiding making a decision at all and told them I would let them know after the holiday weekend.

When I went to yoga yesterday, my dog came into my mind most of the class.  At one point I remembered that part of his name means freedom.  When I was presented with this thought, I realized that freedom also means letting go; to put the end to pain and suffering.  At the end of class I laid on my mat for a bit at peace with my decision that one day very soon it would be okay to let him be free. 

When I got up from my mat to leave, I looked out the window and there was a white butterfly on the glass.

I took this as a definite sign as well that it is almost time.

He has been having a hard time with even recognizing and accepting touch lately but here is a pic he let me take of him yesterday.


Sunday, June 19, 2016

Have I said how much I love the yoga community?

I got an email last night from another student at my studio that made my night....my week even.

It's such an amazing, supportive community.

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this practice 6 years ago.

6!!!

That's crazy.

Feels like I've been going forever and it's such a part of me now.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Gorilla mom

Wherever I go, this seems to be the talk this week.

All I can say is I had a very rough day with my son last night at his baseball game. So while I had been saying this all week anyway about the story, I can again really relate to the mother of that little boy.

You never know what shit kids are going to pull in public.

I've also never been so embarassed and mortified after last night,  and it would not surprise me if the situation ended up on our local Facebook mom's group--at the very least.


Monday, May 30, 2016

Tired

Today will be a super lazy day.

We went to the beach all day yesterday for a Memorial Day airshow and the sun wore me out completely.

I didn't sleep well last night, so slept in and missed yoga today. (Studio was only open for morning classes).

Only things on my radar today are to shower, pick up some groceries, laundry and cleaning of course.

My studio is also offering another summer challenge in June & July so I signed up.

My goal is to try to do 20 classes in one of the months.

But overall, I hope the challenge will help me maintain my 3 classes a week as this has ebbed and flowed this month too due to the busyness of life.

I also just ordered new bands for my FitBit.

I have not missed one day of 10k steps since I got it, and usually average 12k steps.

Get yourself one of these if you need a shove in being more mindful about your physical activity.

Lastly, 89 days to Disney!

I'm not allowed to do the countdown in my house though, because this means summer is over and it's only just begun!!

We actually considered this weekend reconfigurating our trip and renting out vacation club points so we could afford to stay at the Poly, but so far everything seems to be booked. 

Either way I know we will have a fantastic time and we have "free" dining currently.

Hope your summer is off to a good start too :).

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Weird day

So yesterday I was out and about and ran into an old co-worker who used to torture me at my last job.

I was cordial though, and said hello, and we chatted for a few minutes.

It was interesting to me to see they are still there, despite their constant complaining about wanting to get out and find a new job. I also felt really peaceful after we parted, that I can put that part of my life to rest. I wasn't bothered by them anymore.

There also must've been something else going on in the universe yesterday too, because this woman who goes to my yoga studio, an ex-reality star in fact!, who everyone typically avoids like the plague due to her annoying behaviors....sat down by me and started chatting.

Actually normal stuff. And she even paid me a compliment.

I actually felt bad after that and this made me realize you never really know someone's full story, or why they react the way they do in certain situations.

I guess both of these encounters are proof of that.