Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Quick update

If you follow me on Twitter, you probably already know that we sustained flooding and wind damage to our home from Hurricane Sandy. We are not currently living there but staying with our inlaws.

What we went into almost jokingly, turned out to be the scariest day of my life so far. And I say this after being in Manhattan on 9/11. It happened so freakin' fast. Water coming out of nowhere. It truly was like a tsunami that I had only seen on tv.

Right now we are just taking it day by day.

I had my neighbors in my home during the severest part of the storm and I saw first hand people needing to be rescued because panic mode set in. I was easily almost one of them, but thankfully, my neighbors and husband kept me grounded.

While I have not been able to get in touch with anyone live at my insurance company, I was able to speak with FEMA today. My husband was at our home earlier and said FEMA is already coming around to people who applied yesterday.

I went into work today and my co-workers were shocked I came in.

What else could I do though? It is what it is and things are way beyond my control.

I used to live in one of the areas most devastated by the storm and many of our neighbors have lost everything.

It could really be 1000x worse.

I don't know if we will get any assistance financially for our losses but I am remaining hopeful and positive.

I have truly learned that is all that really matters in times like this.

That and having life!

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Rough week

It's been a pretty rough week.

DS developed strep throat, and even though he's on the mend now, his behavior has been pretty challenging.

It also has gotten to the point where it is causing a lot of tension between myself and DH.

We feel like we can't do anything "normal" people do, because we don't know what kind of mood DS is going to be in and how he is going to respond when we take him out to places.

A trip to Target last night turned into a battle because he spotted a toy he wanted, which in turn, lead to a major meltdown when he was told no. DH took him out of the store and he got out of his arms and tried to run through the parking lot.

DH scooped him up and yelled and a bunch of people looked over like we were all out of our minds.

Last week, we tried to take DS to his favorite pizzeria, and when the waiter unknowingly set a knife down next to DS and we took it away, this triggered his horns to come out.

DH ended up walking him home from the pizzeria and it took him about 30 minutes to stop screaming.

Weekends when I am home with him continue to be tough as well. He has his routine. Which generally involves playing with certain toys and watching certain shows.

If I try to interest him in something else this also more often than not, leads to major meltdown mode. Even encouraging him to go outside or to a place he enjoys has become too much of a transition.

Yesterday on a major highway, he climbed out of his carseat and stood in the backseat.

He also has this thing about not having clothes touching him, so he will frequently strip down and start throwing them towards me while I am driving, which is obviously very unsafe.

At home, it continues to be a battle to keep any kind of clothing item on him at all.

Yesterday, we were in a car lane at the bank, depositing my check, and he started yelling and growling at the top of his lungs towards a little girl in the car next to us. It was in a threatening manner and not the least bit cute.

The mother actually rolled down her window to console me, but I still felt like an idiot.

I really don't know how much more of this we can take.

He continues to act similarly with my ILs and especially towards his cousins.

Surprisingly, the school reports are all glowing, so I really don't know what gives in that department.

I was supposed to meet his behavior person yesterday, but cancelled the session because of his strep.

We shall see what next week brings, and hopefully make it through the weekend.

On another sad note, I've lost the momentum for my yoga challenge this month. I got sick recently, went away for a few days, and between all that's going on with DS, I just haven't been able to, or even wanted to go. I have been to 7 classes so far this month, so I am going to try to make it to 15 instead of the 20 if I can.........

Send us strength and positive vibes over here. We really need it right now.

Friday, October 12, 2012


Does anyone else work in an environment where there's constant drama?

How do you deal? (Or not LOL).

I have probably ranted about this before, but I work in an office of all women.

They fit every negative stereotype about women imaginable.

I know I really shouldn't take their bullshit personally, but it's hard not to, especially on days when you hear crap like "I am the only person around here working hard and YOU can just LEAVE."

Or when they say "It's nothing personal, really, but I wish you would stop doing your job."

I know it's petty too, but my co-workers also did not acknowledge my birthday at all this past week, but acknowledged someone else, and still had the nerve to hit me up for $$$$$ (I didn't give any).

They were aware of my birthday as well. This really made me start to think, because I've been hit up numerous times to contribute for others.

Seriously? I hate this DRAMA!!!!

I've been going to yoga a lot this week, sitting alone in my office not getting involved and going out on occasion to get away from the nonsense, and it has helped. I also call one of my MALE co-workers to vent and that always helps too LOL.

I'm also happy that I am not the one crying every day. I know it's mean, but I am kind of rolling my eyes to myself when certain people get all worked up, cry and are just going on and on with their bitchiness.

Leaving is not an option right now and complaining to my boss is not going to do anything because he has zero patience already for my female counterparts.

I just feel like I need to get this stuff out............I am sure one day I may go off......